Inspiration in Random Places

“𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐥𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐰𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐚𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐢𝐳𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐝.”

― 𝐍𝐢𝐤𝐢𝐭𝐚 𝐆𝐢𝐥𝐥

"To be left alone on the tightrope of youthful unknowing is to experience the excruciating beauty of full freedom and the threat of eternal indecision. Few, if any, survive their teens. Most surrender to the vague but murderous pressure of adult conformity. It becomes easier to die and avoid conflicts than to maintain a constant battle with the superior forces of maturity.

[...] Mother whispered, "See, you don't have to think about doing the right thing. If you're for the right thing, then you do it without thinking."'

-- Maya Angelou, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings 

"She thanks the sky, and she walks the earth,
Her tears that fall are beautiful.
She says my people, she says my tribe,
all good lovers out there, peace tonight, peace tonight.

To the broken hearted, the burdened too,
To everyone, peace tonight, peace tonight."

-- Elephant Revival, Peace Tonight

Like, okay sugar and booze feel good, then bad Sometimes real bad But art feels bad before it feels even worse

 – Tommy Pico, Junk


Camping and Summer and Stars [Just Write]

I have new hand soap that is infused with wild orange blossom honey, and it smells like a wildflower field on a bright spring day - warm, fragrant, and full of life. It makes me ache for the balmy months ahead. Gwen and I are both chomping at the bit to get into the tent and do some camping.

I have this memory that pops up now whenever I think of camping, and it still takes my breath away. We were sleeping in our tent, all three of us for once, and we woke in the middle of the night because Gwen had to go to the bathroom. We decided to all walk over to the little bath house. On our way back I looked up and literally stopped dead in my tracks. Up in the mountains, away from all the light pollution that unfortunately blankets our area, with the most perfectly crisp, clear skies, there were stars. Not just a few stars across the sky like we normally see, but a blanket of stars so thick, glowing, and numerous that it covered us all.

The more I looked, the more stars appeared, too many to count - so expansive that it made me feel small, but in the best possible way. Galaxy upon galaxy existed above me in that moment, in a way that felt more real then it had before; and I was struck mute. Trav and Gwen had already made it back to the tent at this point, so I lingered only a few more moments, but those moments were filled with the fullness of the universe.


Horsing Around

Gwen has talked about wanting to ride horses for a while now. She was so excited by them, and would talk about it often when we drove by the stable just a few miles from our place. She finally got her wish this past weekend, thanks to a birthday gift from her Nonnie and Papa!

The morning was colder then we would have liked, but Gwen loved it and did so well! We ended up buying the 10 pack of lessons, so she'll have that as a regular activity this Spring and Summer.

I always loved horses, so its fun seeing Gwen come to that too. Hopefully we'll be able to get in some family trail rides this summer!