The Last Days of Summer

So often this time of year, as September rolls along and the Equinox approaches, I find myself pushing forward into the next season. We all know that I adore Autumn, and the days this time of year start to show its approach. I mornings have that beautiful crispness to them, and leaves start to change color. But this year I've been trying to make a conscious and purposeful choice to lean back into the last days of summer.

Maybe its how fast the year has been flying by, or the fact that Autumn will be here soon enough whether I push forward into it or not, but I'm trying to really enjoy these days of warmth, full sun, and outdoor adventure.

We've had some beautiful days. Labor Day BBQ and swimming party with friends, visit from hawk friends, and lots of playing catch outside.

Already we are planning our Mabon Feast (to be shared with friends this year!), but Gwen and I are milking these summer days too. Surprise visits to the pool, and grilled dinners. I'm letting anticipation rest, and enjoyment reign.

What are you doing with your last days of summer?


Misfits! {2019 Concert #9}

Another weekend, another concert!

This was the first time I've gotten to see the original lineup of The Misfits, and it was quite the experience. 

This is the only picture I got from the Misfits themselves playing, because the pit was an exuberant experience (made 1000x easier by having Travis, and two very big guy friends behind me, having my back), but pictures or not, its an experience I won't soon forget. 

We've seen some damn good concerts lately! Just one more part of this whole Denver life that is so amazing to me! 


Body Confidence

The other day, when we had a concert that evening, and it was still supposed to be in the high 90s at 6pm, I ran out to Target and bought myself my first pair of fitted short shorts.

My relationship with my body has gone through many changes over the year. I've always rocked a bikini, just because that's what I've felt comfortable in (and for short me, I feel like they are wayyyy more flattering then one piece suits!), but shorts have never been my friend. I've gone through stages of hating the curves I do have, while lambasting the ones I don't. I've felt too small (mostly on the top), too big (mostly on my bottom half), not strong enough, not feminine enough...

... and finally, finally, like my body is good enough. My 30s ushered in a new stage of love for my body, and yoga especially has brought me a sense of piece. I still don't look at my body and say, "perfect, everything is just as I want it to be," but I can finally say, I love my body, all it is capable of, all it has done for me. I love the babies its carried, the yoga poses it can do, the heavy things it can lift, and the life it lets me lead.

There is so much work I still want to do with it. Things I want to make stronger, poses I want to achieve, but for the first time I feel like I can love my body while I work towards those things, not just when I get there. At 37, that's a damn good feeling.

Where are you in relationship with your body?


Korn! with Alice in Chains, and Black Flag! {2019 Concert #6 and #7}

We went to two concerts recently, last Sunday and last Wednesday, and saw some killer bands!

On Sunday we saw Korn with Alice in Chains, and Fever 333 as an opener (also Underoath, but I wasn't a big fan).

I was super excited for both of the main bands, they really took me back to middle school/high school! Alice in Chains was amazing. They still tore it up and rocked out their old songs just as hard as ever.

Then Korn just brought the place down!

25 years of incredible music. They played such a great variety of old and new. 

We were right down on the floor, at the front, so I couldn't hear so well afterwards, but it was such an amazing energy the whole time.


We just recovered when Wednesday rolled around and it was time to see Black Flag! Different, smaller venue this time. But this time we got to make it a full date night!

We went to dinner first, and I'll say, I was a slightly bigger fan of our mozzarella plate, then of the concert venue! Ha.

We walked around a bit, saw some killer graffiti, and checked out some book stores, before heading in. 


 I talked about this afterwards with a few people who all agreed: Heavy Metal, Grunge Metal, and even Death Metal get a bad rap often. They call the music and the people violent, hard, scary... but I feel 100% comfortable and safe at these concerts. It wasn't always the case, but these genres have come a long was, especially in their treatment of women in the audience. You can still have fun in your own way, mosh, scream, whatever; but people look out for people, and while you get the occasional shitty person, most just want to be there to enjoy some killer music together.

Unfortunately I don't feel like hardcore punk has made the same strides. While I didn't feel unsafe at Black Flag, the whole vibe was just completely different, and it still feels like people don't really care what happens to those around them. There were times I thought I was going to walk away physically injured in some way, and did at one point take a heavy hit with an elbow straight to the back, and got slammed into a lot. I'm no softy, so it was okay, but it definitely makes it a whole lot harder to just enjoy the show!

That said, it was still a great night with fun music, and I'm glad I got to see one of Trav's favorite bands play, with him.


Girl Scouts - Year 2

Gwen just had her first Girl Scout meeting of the new year, and her first GS meeting with a new troop! We enjoyed her troop last year, but they decided to "split up" in a way at the end of the year, because the leader could no longer lead, and with the absence of her girls, there weren't enough of the younger girls to continue with both age ranges. The former leader did help us find a new troop for Gwen, still close, and we got to meet them all this past Monday.

We're really excited... now. Gwen was more nervous/unsure as we were driving there, but it was all bubbly excitement as we left! There are a lot more girls in this troop, and they seem to have a lot more varied interests that match ours. They are super active, doing a lot of fun field trips  (and even overnights) throughout the year, so we can't wait to experience some great new things and earn some fun new patches.

I can't wait to share some of the fun things we do through out the year (coming up in October... Zombie Survival Event!!).