Something has been nagging at me for a while. A feeling like everyone else is so far ahead of me. Like I'm playing at this whole adult thing. I remember being a child and thinking that all the adults were so sure of themselves, that they knew all the whats and hows and whos and whys. Now I'm the adult, and i feel so far from that. Many days I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing!
I'm finally starting to figure out that it's okay that I don't have it all figured out.
That image I had from childhood, it's just that: an image, an illusion, a child's take on this idea of adulthood. As a teenager you know it all, what and who and how you will be. But the truth is, the older you get and the more you learn, the more you realize all that you don't know.
I don't know what life will look like a year from now. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I do know that I have to stop waiting around for the next big thing which will let my "real life" begin. Job frustrations, life frustrations, house frustrations and all...
Real life is now, and I don't have to have it all figured out, I just have to live it.