Its been years since I first felt it. Since then it has come and gone. There are times I'm so content with everything as it is, right now. There are times when I sit in stillness and think that my life is pretty damn amazing (it really is!).
But then there were other times. Times when I would get these pang of, "there has to be more to it. there has to be more that I can do. more that I can show Gwen." Sometimes a girl just wants more. And in those times some amazing things have happened. 60 miles for cancer. Surrogacy.
I want even more though. (More "more"?)
Now, I know that life isn't all about those big things. It is a fine web, woven from the big and the small. Each event, no matter how tiny seeming in the moment, is an integral thread. But sometimes when you hear about all the bad things in the world, you want to do some big great things.
I saw this TED talk online a few months ago and it inspired me.
This is ridiculous maybe, but I want to change the damn world. More ridiculous still... I really think I can. I don't know how yet, but I'm going to keep trying to figure that out.
What do you do when you want to make a big impact?