Where’s my Jimmy Buffet World?

I wrote this ages ago, but never published it. I thought I would now... because, why not?! Lol. It fits, and then its not just sitting around taking up space.

"Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans." Nothing could be more true, for in the midst of planning my weekends to do everything I could, and see everyone I missed, I found that I was having trouble just enjoying where I was. Life has become so rushed, about fitting in every last event and appointment. You barely digest the first before running to the second. This is not the life I pictured. I have the husband [and daughter] I’ve always dreamed about, but the comparisons ends there.

How did I end up where I am? Raised by hippie parents that wanted me to grow up and do exactly what I wanted to do, exactly what would make me happy, whatever that may be, I’ve always enjoyed the simple things. Being outdoors, in nature, with a good friend and no plans. So where exactly did I turn from my lifelong dream of finding a job that allowed me to have at least some small extent of a Jimmy Buffet lifestyle, and find myself in the rat race, pushing only towards money and power and societies version of contentment? Stuck in a job that doesn’t make me happy, and which is taking me nowhere fast… or I suppose you could say that it is taking me nowhere, very slowly. I was recently informed that I will be acquiring a new job title and new responsibilities in addition to the ones I already have at my job. I will therefore, be more valuable to the company, so I should be happy. But I only feel trapped. These are not responsibilities that I want, nor are they even from an area of the company that I am remotely interested in. But it is my job, and so I smile and nod and accept my new role.

Except that now I would describe it less as Jimmy Buffet an more as, I want a job that makes me feel the way a perfect autumn day does. That doesn't seem too much to ask.

1 comment:

  1. You took the words right out of my mouth. This is exactly how I'm feeling.


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